My kiss with Mr. Tumnus

I want you to keep in mind that this is a dream, and even though I SOO wanted it to be true, God didn't give me mercy and now I have to suffer. Because Emelie took Tumnus away from me T__T
In my dream that is, *giggle*</b>

When I write Blackout I don't remember what happend just there. Y__Y

Remember, everything that is written in this style , are my thoughts outside the dream.
I WUZ LUVIN' EIT!



I was sleeping at Emelies tonight and we had rented three films. Sweeney Todd, Zoom and Faithess. Faithless was a movie about a hungarian boy who lived during the w.w. 2 and got transfered to Auschwitz. Anyway, so the film was kinda dull most of the time and that's when we come to how the dream began. For thoose of you who have seen this film maybe remember that when Gyurka is working by the railtracks, shoveling stones down to the other prisoners, you may notice that the sky is kinda... gray-white blended and it's hard to figure out if it's morning, noon or afternoon. Imagine that sky and railtracks but in a diffrent angle and a lot bigger area. Half the sky is gray-white, and the other half is kinda sooty and black, but still not...


I was walking towards the railtracks with someone beside me. I was feeling like Lucy the first time she entered Narnia (and the funny thing is that I played Lucy in our parody, LOL). I was holiding the person's hand beside me. We walked kinda slowly, and there were other people there too. I assumed they were prisoners, but they didn't have white- and bluestriped clothes.
I looked at the person beside me and noticed that he was one and a half head taller than me, he was wearing a red, knitted scarf and he had goatlegs. Of course, it was Mr. Tumnus (</333).
I looked forward again and saw the boy from the movie, Gyurka.
Blackout
I was just bordering a ship of some kind, that looked like a submarine, but it wasn't. It was just the same kind of shape. With me was Mr. Tumnus and Emelie.
This ship was a resturant, so we went in and sat down by a little more distant table. It was very cozy, considering that the table was small and had one couch around it. It was a very low roof, I think it was because it leaned down. It felt like it was a stair above us, where the "roof" was. I have that kind of stairs down to the basement >:3
Emelie walked away for some reason, maybe she went to the bathroom? So I was alone together with Mr. Tumnus. But he had changed a bit. He didn't had his goatbeard and looked more like himself, or the actor that plays him (James McAvoy). He was talking to me but I didn't listen very well because I was distracted by his looks. He was so cute (and shorter now than before). And he spoke with his wonderful to-die-for accent. I don't know if it's New Zeeland or Ireland, but it's sounds like.... ~~~
I remember he turned his head to the left, but not entirely. It was like he was thinking of something very far away and I couldn't resist it... I was... trapped. I leaned forward and intended to give him a kiss on the cheek, but instead I reached the right corner of his mouth and kept my eyes open. But then I couldn't get a hold over myself and used my hand to turn his head to the right and... Our lips met.
Now when I read it, it doesn't sound as good as it was to accually experience it. In my imagination. I am explaning in the best way I can, but no matter how many times I twist and turn it, it always stays so... hard to imagine.
It lasted for a few seconds, our lips were a bit open and I felt his breath in my mouth, warm and...
Then I closed the kiss by leaning back again.
Imagine a closeup frame on our mouths, just the second when I lean back, that our lips are like, sticked together and don't want to let go. Our mouths were still open, even when I was like, 12 inches away. In the closeup you don't see any background, just a white, mysterious smoke coming from maybe the kitchen? Everything is in slowmotion and out of his mouth, a slow breath comes out and hits my face...
Blackout   -   I hate myself for that *stab*
We are in a mall, Tumnus and Emelie are walking beside me and Tumnus has his arm around her. Emelie is blonde (XoX). The mall we are in is the mall from the movie Mean Girls. In the movie, when the girls stand by some stairs and looks down at the fountain; that's where we are now...
I was so jealous of Emelie, stealing Tumnus from me. I wanted to hurt her in some way, I couldn't stand seeing them together, walking and from time to time give eachother a VERY small kiss on the lips. Just a little peck. That was the only thing I could be happy for. (And btw, he is entirely James McAvoy now xD)
There was something different about this moment in my dream, it was like a movie, many days was just flashing past me, I saw myself walking quickly by the fountain watching them walk somewhere else, and they couldn't see me. Many days flew past without me doing anything. I loved him to much to see him like this.
Then one day, when I was walking by the fountain, the ship was there instead, but in a smaller version. You could still go in to it, but it was very small on the outside.
Then something weird happend and suddenly I was standing on a seaport and the ship was there again, in it's normal size, in the water. I am standing and looking at it and beside me is James with his arm around me.
I hear a scream from below and run to the egde. I was standing somewhere opposite the middle of the ship, and somehow I could still se Emelie down there in the water get run over by the ship.
Blackout, blackout, blackout


And then I woke up. I wanted more kisses with Tumnus, but other than that I think I might got a kiss from him, because he set it up so Emelie died. I was so happy I ran and jumped in to him arms. I just hope that Emelie doesn't die irl T____T
BUT SHE IS NOT ALLOWED TO TAKE MY GOATMAN!



© Larafaire a.k.a HorrorOf - Kiaa "My kiss with Mr. Tumnus"